first call

looking back down memory lane, it seems like it was just yesterday i received a letter from jpa stating that i can pursue my studies in medical field in india.time flies by..and then we all flew to india and some to indon..we were in india from the time it was like a small town till early this year where numerous shopping mall and boutique hotels are being built..

now most of us are back in malaysia as doctors..scattered around the whole nation..it feels lonely being in a hospital where nobody knows you..it takes a while for them to learn to trust you..

i had my first ever on-call last friday..i was incharge of ward 1..male ortho ward..with 24 patients..2 critical cases..and at my time..these 2 critical cases started to desaturate simultaneously..obviously i had to attend one of them..a friend attended the other..then my mo came..furious..asking why i did'nt attend to that patient..i told him about the other pt..but since i'm a first poster..he contained his anger..

i felt like i did a bad job managing ward 1..eventhough i was kind of angry with a fellow ho who knows to boss me around..i was thankful she was around helping me..the whole night i was taking abg..early in the morning i was like a vampire..taking blood..thank god i succeeded with one poke..one pt even said thank you after i took her blood..

the next day i was like a zombie..attended morning rounds without even bathing or brushing my teeth..had my breakfast at 11am..i don't know how i performed that on call time but will try to improve..thankfully the mo on call with us that night was soooooo nice..other mo's would have shouted at me..i am tired of being shouted at..but it will keep going on for the next 2 years..