tragedy

my grandmother passed away at 12.15 am on thursday 25th feb..just half an hour after me and my family visited her at the hospital..little did we know that would be the last time before she took her last breath..

my late tok mak had been in a coma since sunday..she had massive intracranial bleed probably due to HTN..initially she was on life-support..i was at malacca when this happened..my family were all gathered at hosp ampang..thanks to my friends..they sent me directly to the hospital..

along the way from malacca..my mom called me numerous time..she asked my opinion whether we should proceed with surgery or just leave it..because of her age and amount of bleeding surgery was unlikely..they decided for surgery..but hkl told that they couldn't do the surgery..

she was put on life support and meds..from that point on i knew it was a matter of time..but what made me sad was that everyone was having hopes..i was with her during the day..i asked the dr who was just about the same age as i to explain everything..she told me that my grandmother could breathe on her own when they removed the breathing tube..but unfortunately her brain is dead because of the massive amount of blood compressing her brain..her improving pulse and warm extremeties were all due to effect of drugs..

once all these were removed..she would slowly go..i knew this would happen but how do i explain them to my relatives..they were all hoping that she would wake up..i had to hold back tears when ever my relatives came..i decided to cry in private before i told this to anyone..then my mom called to check on how tok was doing..i told her what the doctor told me..i heard frustration in her voice..the doctors said that my garndmother was strong..she was a fighter..but her brain was gone..

tok mak died on the day my brother was going back to nz..we had the burial done before zohor at a cemetary near my house..she really chose an ideal time to go..both me and my brother were back home..it was a weekend and everybody came..relatives from johor..her passing gathered us together..it has been years since i've met them..

what really makes me sad was that i did'nt get a chance to meet her while she was still awake and alive..but i am thankful to Allah that i got to be with her when she was in a coma..take care of her..get to kiss her before she was buried..as my mom told me.."u are lucky that u are here..u should be thankful.."

al-fatihah..